You ever play one of those games where the fast talking guy has the marble and three cups and you're supposed to follow the marble as he moves the cups around. I've never been very good at following the marble or winning games in general. The answer I always have in those games is. "The marble is under the cup that it's under" and I walk away.
I think that I'm like this in life to some extent as well, I don't deal well with subtle. I need people to be very direct with me.
I also assume that people are deceptive by nature. I trust but verify just about everything that people tell me.
It's a pretty shitty way to be, and verifying everything does absolutely nothing for my insecurity.
So there's that.
I'm out of things to say today. I'm just mad, and annoyed. Mostly with myself, and with how unfair things feel this week. Two deaths rocked my life, showing me just how delicate life is. More importantly, it forces me to have that dialogue with myself, forces me to question everything I'm doing to make sure that I'm on the right path and I'm pursuing my happiness. The reality is, that part of my life needs work.
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